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lmao i found my xange from middle school

if you're bored and want a laugh ;

xanga.com/xhyperchick8x

wow i was SUCH a loser.

k ill update this sometime.. or not lol ill get around to it

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lol i never write here

i just dont have time. well i do. but i just dont feel like writing ever because it takes thinking. searching myspace takes no brain power at all. plus ive actually been loaded with work lately. and ive been trying to do it. so now im kind of good in every class except chem. which i have an A in but im gonna fail the next test. when i say i have no idea whats going on i mean it. i am so so so fucked lol.

but schools a borign topic so im gonna stop. even though my life has been revolving around it lately. well not really. dennis isnt school. but ive been paying a lot less attention to hm then i used to. even though hes my boyfriend, he never hangs out with me, so im not gonna go out of my way to talk to him. he might hang out with me tomorrow, but part of me HIGHLY doubts it. i do like him and all, but im interested in other people too.

oh yeah, im like eating breathing and sleeping pippin. and its over in under a month and im happy and sad about that. as much as i say i hate it, i will really miss it. well, ill miss being with the people a lot. because there are certain people i dotn talk to outside of pippin that i really like. did i ever say i was out of my mind? lol the sad part is i dont even do anything at pippin other than occasionally. i just stare off into space and think a lot.

so here's my life right now in a nutshell: school, pippin, bcac cookie grams (they take tooo much effort), dennis, and the other guys i cant get out of my head. notice that there is no sleep involved anywhere in here. which is why i'm tired 24/7

all i can say is i think id be dead without my friends right now. but they know that because its always true. and there are still some people that annoy me persistantly, but i guess ill just have to learn to live with it.

k well im off to read the jungle (shoot me now)

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too lazy to write in this anymore. ever

well im back with dennis. suprise suprise.

but im not sure its totally what i want. hes always too busy for me. so i never see him. wtf does he want me to do? just sit around doing nothing waiting for him to actually act like my boyfriend?

id rather just be single and talking to him so it doesnt stop me from having fun. id be willing to commit to him completely if he loved me enough to give up some of his party time to be with me. but he doesnt. so  now im stuck.

theres so many great guys i could be with. but i pick dennis because i will always love him. but i need more that love and some phone calls. he lives a fucking block away. is it that hard to come to my house occasionally or something?

whatever if this doesnt change soon im gonna need to figure out how to tell him this. but he takes everythigng the wrong way so it would just turn in to a disaster.

so ill just stick it out and see what happens... fun.

ah bath essay. gotta actually do it.

maybe some comments on this thing for once ? lol

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this is for matt.

so break has been going good

ignoring the shit i need to deal with. i like too many people and i cant pick so i wont. and someone needs to not think im like going out with him. ugh i cannot deal with this.

but theres my other guys who are good, so im not complaining. too bad i cant stay with a guy UGH

someday, i guess. ill work on it.

no more hooking up with guys who think im gonna like marry them. i should give out a warning slip in advance, oh well.

anyway i got good presents for xmas. makeup, video ipod, coach purse, etc

and the rent soundtrack which has continuously played the last 3 days =] idk how i live without this before this year haha

the rest of this week should be fun. im boring tonight. sorry matt lol. ill write more / better tomorroe

[soundgarden tomorrowwww]

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nevermind.

i was just paranoid, and everyone else was right.

now lets just see what happens...